11/25/24

i don't forgive and i most certainly do not forget.

i pray that you never find peace. i generally believe in redemption but i think you were placed in my life specifically to ruin it. i feel nothing but disgust when i remember your existence.

i feel like in august there was a noticeable shift and i should have known there was something deeper to it. i should have scratched my head a bit harder when i saw that photo. or the other photo. or the other photo.

in some ways it's not your fault. you might think i'm directing my rage at the wrong person here and you may be right about that. there was someone else who i hated quite a bit, but i at least admire her craft. i think she was stronger than i was, and for that i can't help but respect her. i think you're weak and pathetic and i want your fucking head on a pike.

i tried so fucking hard. you don't know how hard i tried to survive in my own skin while knowing you were there.