7/15/24

i feel like my intro wasn't appropriate and i just said the bare minimum. i'll spew out the rest in this little corner. i'm a woman who generally rots and resents the rising popularity of "bedrotting". therapists and psychiatrists alike believe that i'm borderline with antisocial traits (i disagree). i am an istp 9w8 sp954 because typology is fun. i have a hunch that i'm bipolar and i might be manic while typing this. i am somewhat dysphoric over being female but i ignore it because i don't care enough. i mourn the childlike figure that i never had so i'm an on-and-off bulimic in an attempt to get there. i dislike sobriety but i'm too proud to admit there might be a problem. i have been interested in true crime in an unfortunate way on-and-off for the last six or seven years. i have an irrational sense of contempt towards people who, 95% of the time, don't deserve it. there is a small teeny tiny handful of people i genuinely love though so i'm normal. i generally dislike myself but also see myself in a higher regard than the vast majority of people i know. i dislike being inconsistent in every single aspect of my life but i'm also comfortable. i am well aware of how awful this paragraph is and i promise i am not an edgelord.